As I type up this post, it’s pretty hard to process that I won’t be going back to school next fall. It’s truly surreal to think that come December, my academic career will have come to an end. After eighteen years of waking up early, sitting in a desk and learning something new every day; after countless homework assignments, essays, inspirational professors, late nights at study jam and crying over test scores, all of that will be behind me.
It’s a happy thing and a sad thing really.
This is a look I actually wore on Wednesday of my last first week of school. Except I traded out the heeled sandals for my white Converse since I would be on my feet all day. Proving that this outfit is incredible versatile, as well as cute, which is always something I look for when selecting pieces to add into my wardrobe.
I also love this recent vintage find of mine: my Levi’s denim jacket. Denim is my lifeline. I absolutely adore the vibe it brings to an outfit. This particular jacket works across all seasons and is the perfect light layer for this time of year. AKA, when you’re absolutely freezing in the morning, and suffering from heat stroke once your afternoon classes roll around. I love how it dresses down this little gingham dress, instantly making it more “school appropriate.”
I just finished my last ever first week back at school and have been experiencing a true rollercoaster of emotions after a short three days of courses.
First off, how am I ever going to find enough time to everything I have to do, let alone everything I want to do?? Currently I am a full-time marketing/digital marketing student, president of my university’s fashion blog, full-time YouTuber and blogger, working freelance photography and social media marketing gigs, and have been cast in my community theater’s production of Mamma Mia. *screams internally*
However, I am very much over the whole “I’m so busy” sob story people use when trying to get people to pity them/be wowed by them/whatever other motive people have when going off about how little time they have. It’s tired. And boring. So let’s just say I’m going to pull a Tim Gunn and “make it work!” Insert sassy girl emoji here.
Secondly, I’ve been feeling very nostalgic when it comes to the end of my career as a student. I wouldn’t necessarily say that I love school, as it never came naturally to me. Class participation makes my stomach turn, I can’t score well on a standardized test to save my life, and strongly believe our education system is deeply flawed, as well as completely incompatible with the way I (and many others) learn.
But I love to learn, and have been so lucky to even get to go to school at all, let alone pursue a higher education. I’ve had the chance to have some of the most incredible human beings as my professors and friends, who have inspired me and pushed me to grow into the person I am today. As much as my relationship with school has been rocky, it makes me kind of sad to be closing this chapter of my life.
Lastly, with my last semester of college beginning, I’ve been forced to face the fact that I won’t live at home forever. Of course, I’m excited to explore all that post-grad life has to offer, and after living at home through 4.5 years of college I am very much ready to begin life on my own, but it is weird knowing that life won’t ever quite look the same as it does right now.
So my goal this semester is this: to simply appreciate it. To take in each day for all that it is, and remember that these are my last days. But it’s also important to note that life has so much more in store and with things like travel and books, you will always be a student.
So here’s to the last back to school!
Unless I decide to go back someday, because you always can. And that would be perfectly lovely too.
Until next time, people!
Photography by Aline Dufflocq Williams | @alinedufflocqw